On Monday, Billie Eilish was interviewed by Howard Stern and shared her views on pornography — namely, how she feels it “destroyed” her brain at a young age.
“As a woman, I think porn is a disgrace,” Eilish said in the interview. “I used to watch a lot of porn, to be honest. I started watching porn when I was like 11.”
The 19-year-old Grammy-winning singer said she started watching pornography when she was 11 and that she was enthusiastic about sex media: “I was an advocate, and I thought I was one of the guys and would talk about it and think I was really cool for not having a problem with it and not seeing why it was bad…I didn’t understand why that was a bad thing. I thought it was how you learned how to have sex.”
Eilish reflected on her experience with porn, saying that she is now disturbed and angry and that it “devastated” her. She said that her increasing attraction to graphic and violent videos affected her sexual relationships.
“It got to a point where I couldn’t watch anything else unless it was violent—I didn’t think it was attractive,” she said.
“I was a virgin. I had never done anything. And so, it led to problems.… The first few times I had sex, I was not saying no to things that were not good. It was because I thought that’s what I was supposed to be attracted to.”
Eilish, who has discussed her issues with her own body in the past and who famously wears oversized clothes to cover herself, also noted that she thinks the depiction of bodies in pornography is unrealistic.
“The way that vaginas look in porn is f*cking crazy,” she said. “No vaginas look like that. Women’s bodies don’t look like that. We don’t come like that.”
Ultimately, Eilish said that she feels that watching pornography gave her night terrors and sleep paralysis.
“I think it really destroyed my brain, and I feel incredibly devastated that I was exposed to so much porn,” she admitted. “I’m so angry that porn is so loved. And I’m so angry at myself for thinking that it was okay.”
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